Those Bitches

The only things that these meds are doing for me is making me realize how I was never really in control...they (voices/mindsets)  just made me think as if I was....those fucking bitches.

I say this because I am so lost. I can't function, I don't know how to process emotions, I never had the talents that I thought I had...

Guys, I am a fucking mess right now and I need a girls night out to numb the shithole those meds put me in.

Will I ever find meds that will actually help me?