Matthew 7:3-5

Matthew 7:3-5English Standard Version (ESV)

3 Why do you see the speck that is in your brother's eye, but do not notice the log that is in your own eye? 4 Or how can you say to your brother, ‘Let me take the speck out of your eye,’ when there is the log in your own eye? 5 You hypocrite, first take the log out of your own eye, and then you will see clearly to take the speck out of your brother's eye.

I could be doing so well at home with my family, career, my life… all it takes for everything to go bat shit is for me to spend time with her. I literally saw her for 15 minutes, but that 15min will turn into a week+ because I keep reliving her in my head. I am so tired of being her GOT DAMN SCAPEGOAT! Everything that went wrong in the family, if I was around she (my mom) would blame me. You see my family is a very judgmental bunch. If they were going through something, even if it was something that I have been through, they would still judge me. I was the one that was different, but not them. We are the same mentally and physically, but yet I was the different one. They seclude me so much but in honesty, that is how it was my whole life. I don’t know why I am so bent out of shape right now. I’ve always been different to them. I’ve never been ghetto enough, not popular enough, not strong enough. Heck maybe that is why I was raped in molested, because I was never strong enough.